For a long time I thought I was dying
because I was dying
The actions I made were leading me into a path of destruction
No one could help me
Only myself
There were people there but no one stuck around
I can only hope that If I am ever in need like that again in the future
the people I chose to be in my life will help me if I cant help myself
Will stick around long enough for me to gather my strength
I appreciate the people that did leave me because otherwise it would not be me holding myself up
it would be someone else
while some people think I need someone else to be happy or even stable that is not the case
I am in a relationship now and am happy and stable
but can not say that I wasn't already heading in the direction of self progression
I move on in a relationship not because I find someone better
but because I know I am no longer willing to invest my time or feelings into a certain girl
it takes faith for a relationship to work
But often one does not have faith when there is none to be had
Only truthfulness can be backed by faith
a person cannot have faith in a relationship that isn't so
But if it is true
there will be faith

Whatever it be
It worked out the way it did
And I am grateful for everything
For those that helped by pulling a crutch from me
I have to stand on my own two feet if I am going to stand

Still I wonder
why do you leave some one you love
to make them stronger after they fall? because they will fall
is that what you want to see? For them to fall? A person does not let some one they love fall
because they will fall 10 times with your help but 10x that amount without you
a person must not have loved you for them to let you fall